His blog is gone... forever...

Before I start anything....

I would like to thank all the readers of Dominic's blog...

In life, nothing is permernant... some things disappear, some things wait to disappear...


Many people think that it is silly to blog... that blogging is for angsty teenagers who need a release on life...
These people do not understand blogging at all...

Do I love Dominic?... Am I ranting it all out for attention or self mollification?

No. Without people reading my blog, I would still blog... without having an eventful life, I'd blog my thoughts on having an eventful life...

My blog sets my goals, calends my priorities and archives my thoughts...

I love Dominic, with all my heart....

100%... 101%... 102%... and it gets more and more each day...

no... its not a crush... or I'd have drop everything a long time ago..



Dominic's parents requested him to delete his blog...

Everything is gone.

Memories, feelings, thoughts...

By doing this, they have achieved a few things:
1) They have made months of his past memories irretrievable
2) And thus, he might change.. for the better?..

I guess...

Being a Christian, born in a Christian family, raised by conservative Christian parents, I know how they feel..

But I'm glad, most of all... that they said this :
"No matter what path you take in life, we will always love you..."

... I cried silently when I heard that...

Its hard isn't it?

Letting a child whom you kissed, hug, held and comforted, nagged, scolded and cried over for 18 years...
letting him choose a path... which you believe has no future...

Letting the child whom you love so much, be loved by another person...

If I tell you that I'd give my world for him, would you believe me?..


I don't believe I'm not good enough for him... And I believe that I'm more then capable of providing a brilliant future and being a loving and faithful companion to him...


I'm so scared for this Sunday....
Its the first time I'm actually frightened of something that I know I ought not to be..

What if they don't like me?
What if they think I'm not a good "type" of person?
What if our personalities clash?

what if...


Would you love me like parents would to a son?...
Would you even treat me like a friend?...

so many questions...

so little answers...

but I promise, that if you will accept both of us to be together... I will not let you down...


a promise that is meant to be kept.